I was so excited to meet my little one, as are we all, along with the feelings of ‘I’m so done with being pregnant and I want this baby out now’. Having SPD (Symphsis Pubis Dysfunction) made the pregnancy a lot harder than I ever imagined. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t get comfy, often id find myself sat down just crying because of the pain. I never thought it would go away, but sure enough as soon as he arrived it disappeared.
It was a Thursday, a lot seems to happen on a Thursday to me, coincidentally if you read my previous post, I also found out I was pregnant on a Thursday! As soon as I hit 37 weeks, I was determined to try everything to get this baby out. You name it, I tried it. I would sit bouncing on my balls for hours on end, but that was definitely not working. I remember going to my midwife appointment at 36+4 and she said ill see you next week, my reply was ‘ I wont be coming to that appointment because ill have had him by then’- and so I did!
In the early afternoon, I sat doing my mum’s and godmother’s (Tracey) nails. They were off to New York on the Saturday Morning. I kept getting tightening feelings in my tummy, I wasn’t sure if they were contractions because I don’t think you really know what to expect with your first baby. That night we had a ‘romantic night in’, if you know what I mean, apparently best way to get them out is to do a bit of what got them in there, lol! I had a hot bath, and the tightening’s were getting more frequent and stronger. I called the hospital around 10pm and they told me to wait till they were so many contractions in 5 minutes. I waited and I timed, I called and waited a little more. Until about 3am when I called them again and got the go ahead to go into hospital. During the car ride in I was feeling a whole range of emotions. We would be walking in to this hospital and walking out as a family of three. But on the other hand, I was walking in to the unknown, something which could be the most painful thing ever to happen to me.
I was admitted to Maternity Triage, examined and I was about 4cm dilated. At this point, my contractions were still very frequent, but not unbearable. However, as time went on, my contractions slowed down completely, unless I was walking around. Hours and hours were spent walking the corridors of the hospital. The snow was falling outside the window, it was beautiful. We were a bit unsure as to what was going to happen at this point, there was no progression with contractions, but I was 6cm dilated, because of this, they couldn’t send me home.
Around 12pm they got the ‘OK’ to take me over to labour suite, they were going to break my waters. I wanted a water birth. It was the one thing I wanted more than anything. I kept begging my midwife to keep the pool free for me. We walked over to Labour suite, they took me into my room and we got settled in. At this point I was still completely fine, no pain relief, it wasn’t really hurting me at all. My waters were broken shortly after, if you’ve never had your waters broken, its like weeing yourself for a very long time, and you can’t control it. Then the contractions got stronger and way more painful, with tears in my eyes, I looked up at josh and with all of my energy screamed I needed Gas and Air. From that point on, I would not let go of it. I think this was the point I lost my dignity.
I then moved into the pool room, I hopped on in (well not literally), and from this point its pretty much a blur. Like I said, gas and air was my best friend, nothing else, which I’m very pleased to say! I do think I overdid it a little though, because it really was a blur. I gripped on to my mouthpiece like a precious diamond and panicked like a lost child in a supermarket when I let go. I pushed, panted, screamed like a whale, and finally felt this bulging pain had gone, he’d arrived! At 16:11 weighing 7lb 14, Harley-Ray Ian Marsh was welcomed into the world.
I would probably say the most unattractive part of the birth, even though its so beautiful, would definitely be post partum. I remember sitting in the pool, josh sat behind me holding Harley-Ray, and the midwife said I would now need to deliver the placenta. I had the choice of either staying in the pool, and waiting up to an hour, or climbing out and having the injection. Of course, after the birth, who really in their right mind wants to sit in that pool for another hour of pain. NOT ME.
I looked over to the bed, on the other side of the room, and thought to myself, as I looked down in to the pool to see the state, how am I ever going to get over there. The midwife brought the bed to the poolside (oh that sentence sounds so luxurious but I can assure you it actually looked like a massacre had taken place in the pool). I turned myself over, and prepared myself to climb on to the bed. I remember lifting myself up gripping on to the edge, and I honestly felt like everything was going to fall out. You know one of those moments you wish you had on camera? This was one, not a sight for sore eyes. Well and truly starkers, climbed on to all fours and just stayed like that on the couch. Turned to face the midwife, everything hanging, and said ‘What shall I do now’…
It really is funny how your dignity just totally goes out of the window, a total stranger putting their hands near your nun, yeah no problem! (Sarcasm) The things we have to do ay!
Despite all of that, I can honestly say that was the best day of my life for sure.
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